I've self-diagnosed myself with depression and/or hypothyroidism for quite a while now, with the idea in my head that the symptoms first appeared only 2-3 years ago...
boy was I surprised when I found this (childish, i know.) :
She didn’t mean me…
A relieved sigh from me…
I wonder why,
Of all feelings, a sigh?
Is it guilt I feel,
Or is the pity real?
I used to dislike even her dress,
But day by day I hate her less.
But it’s not like she’s different,
It’s not like she’s changed,
Then why all of a sudden
Has my perception waned?
It’s not like I’ve forgotten him,
Nor aren’t I pained,
I guess Time had healed,
Though with a scar, the pain is sealed..
There’s a pain in my smile,
There’s a pain in my look,
But I am such an actress,
That I even disguise the pain from myself!
I mistake it for happiness,
I mistake it for unease.
Sometimes, I mistake it for fear…
And mistake it for disease…
I blame the teachers,
I blame the students,
I blame my existence,
In fact, there’s no one I acquit but you…
The world is my source of wretchedness
My family, and my friends,
I wonder why I took engineering,
When I could just fence!
And why can’t I just blame you,
Instead of blaming all,
It’s so much easier,
And it’d mean your fall!
boy was I surprised when I found this (childish, i know.) :
She didn’t mean me…
A relieved sigh from me…
I wonder why,
Of all feelings, a sigh?
Is it guilt I feel,
Or is the pity real?
I used to dislike even her dress,
But day by day I hate her less.
But it’s not like she’s different,
It’s not like she’s changed,
Then why all of a sudden
Has my perception waned?
It’s not like I’ve forgotten him,
Nor aren’t I pained,
I guess Time had healed,
Though with a scar, the pain is sealed..
There’s a pain in my smile,
There’s a pain in my look,
But I am such an actress,
That I even disguise the pain from myself!
I mistake it for happiness,
I mistake it for unease.
Sometimes, I mistake it for fear…
And mistake it for disease…
I blame the teachers,
I blame the students,
I blame my existence,
In fact, there’s no one I acquit but you…
The world is my source of wretchedness
My family, and my friends,
I wonder why I took engineering,
When I could just fence!
And why can’t I just blame you,
Instead of blaming all,
It’s so much easier,
And it’d mean your fall!