They (about 25% of them), know her from the same country and by some sheer coincidence, they happen to know this other girl who was her rival in a love story. The chicken has come to accept, after a long time, that the other girl has absolutely won the love interest's heart, and the chicken admits defeat. However, the chicken (with all politeness) can't forget
The metaphorical chicken, i.e. me, crossed the road to get away from a world of unhappiness that contains a lot of nice, friendly people who can never get very close to her. It's not their fault, but she doesn't see it as her fault either, that is when she remembers what is it that bugs her.
They (about 25% of them), know her from the same country and by some sheer coincidence, they happen to know this other girl who was her rival in a love story. The chicken has come to accept, after a long time, that the other girl has absolutely won the love interest's heart, and the chicken admits defeat. However, the chicken (with all politeness) can't forget
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In alternate universes, I could be :
1) a linguist or 2) an etymologist or 3) a forensic anthropologist or 4) a genetic engineer or 5) an English teacher or 6) motivational speaker or 7)an author What would you be ? 1. Drink more water
2. Wake up early 3. Get fit (goal: 55kg and walks thrice a week) 4. Get a driving license 5. Travel somewhere new 6. Meet new people 7. Sponsor an orphan 8. Complete French Duolingo 9. Complete Spanish Duolingo 10. Complete Hindi Duolingo 11. Live through a VIVA VOCE 12. Read at least 12 books (V. Roth, C. Dickens, J. Steinbeck, A. Christie, G. Orwell, M. Crichton, J. K. Rowling, M. Kundera, A. Roy, H. Murakami, S. Sheldon, S. Rushdie) 13. Publish in at least 2 journals 14. Get a bicycle 15. <Left empty until I learn a bit more about myself> I learnt to read/write Korean today..
In 15 minutes thanks to Ryan Estrada.. http://www.ryanestrada.com/learntoreadkoreanin15minutes/ It wasn't difficult at all! I did not attempt to memorize it though, so I just got a glance at everything and tried to read.. didn't really memorize all the letters.. especially the vowel related ones.. i just remember g, d, n, k, j, ch, s, p, r, ee, oo, and aa Glad i tried, if not i'd have believed it's like chinese and very difficult bla bla.. My PhD plans got nowhere, not for a lack of funds/place but just inward motivation, and I've been seriously reconsidering it. By December I had made a list out of the whole dilemma: 11I think people should reconsider phd and honestly ask themselves why are they doing it. 1 Is it to learn further? 2 Is it to get an academic job? 3 Is it a step towards getting a better job opportunity? Or more money? 4 Is it worth the pain? It may take more than six years... Or never. Or I may die trying... 5 Is it worth the money? Can I get the money back? 6 Is it worth the time? I could be 29- 32 when I finish phd. (Remember that postgrad life has no real breaks or vacation) 7 Is it better than the equivalent job experience? 8 How will it help me where I am going? 9 Is it just a way of proving myself to myself and society? 10 Is it just a rite of passage I had forced myself to believe in as necessary because my aunt took it? 11 Will it help Islam and my greater goals? 12 Will it help humanity more than charity from my job? 13 What will it be about? 14 How will I fund it? 15 What will happen in the process? 16 Will I get married somewhere in the middle? 17 If so, is it it better to start it after marriage since either way I'll probably end up married when I'm finishing it? As a Muslim, it pisses me off, to say the least, that the world we live in has become as hostile as it can ever get. I had not been so alarmed with al-Qaeda and other organizations on the loose. Although I didn't support them, I had the false security of being very far away from them and the belief that they didn't hurt random strangers and instead targetted politicians and policy-makers. In fact, I saw Al-Q as a puppet base for something bigger, so while i disliked them, I had no confusion and didn't doubt myself. I also didn't ridicule them as they had a mission of some sort.
On the other hand, daesh, is a just whole bomb of confusion. I loathed them and the day they came into existence. I hate how they manipulated youth and how they reveled in their kills. They don't make any sense, fighting other groups, fighting all sects of Islam that they didn't approve of, the Muslim brotherhood, and god knows what their criteria are. Weirdly enough, they did some good things. One can't deny that they planted fear and tension in the hearts and minds of oppressors and that they gained a reputation quickly, and gained land quickly. The only problem is they are indiscriminate about who they kill. They seem to have a thirst for blood and always seem to talk about the oppressed Muslim sufferings and how they finally got to avenge all those people. Ironically, ISIS is not at all about justice, and it's all about true terror. They all look very happy and extremely pleased with their efforts and success and it scares me. No, I'm not afraid that they will target my country (they've already started their plans there). I am afraid of being on the wrong side on there hereafter. I'm afraid that they had done some good that I haven't heard of because of the propaganda against them. I'm afraid of the damage they have done being forgotten in a few years, and that they have time to reverse their image and make their lands prosper. I'm afraid that God will forgive them and not my ridiculing them. You can't deny their belief in him, distorted and extremist, as it may be.. Today, I took a leap. I submitted a quick and easy application for a scholarship at one of Hong Kong's most prestigious universities, globally too..
I waived the many questions I will have to address, if I do get accepted and just hit the 'submit' button. Keep me in your prayers, guys.. On another note, I am making great progress with my research article and nil with my presentation slides.. HELP!! Hey guys!!! I'm back after a long rollercoaster ride, which I'm excited to write about!! Whoa, I haven't written anything since April? Well to give you an idea of my life let me use some visual aids, some of which are screen captures of my life at those points..
Perhaps I should attach myself with the Islamic Lunar Calendar instead of the solar one..
For one thing, i can get over 2014's bad occurrences and negativity and have better thoughts, and hopefully these manifest into better actions and better outcomes for me and those around me-and eventually those around them (ripple ripple). The Lunar month is based on the time it takes the moon to complete a single orbit around the earth and it is just over 29½ days. There are many advantages to the Lunar calendar. For example, the various dates in the Islamic Calendar such as Ramadan and Hajj rotate every year and are not fixed like the Solar Year. People, therefore, will perform acts of worship in various climatic conditions and in different length of hours in submission to the will of Allah where human imagination plays no part.The new moon marks the beginning of each new lunar month and it is easy for people to see the new moon and know that a new month has begun. This probably explains why most ancient civilizations such as the Babylonians, the Jews, the Greeks and the Egyptians in the Middle East, the Aztecs and the Incas of the West, and the Hindus and the Chinese of the East used this system . Interestingly, the English word ‘month’ is derived from the word ‘moon’. The twelve months of the Islamic Calendar are as follows: 1.Muharram 2.Safar 3.Rabi‘ al-Awwal 4.Rabi‘ al-Thani 5.Jumada al-Ula 6. Jumada al-Ukhra 7. Rajab 8. Sha‘ban 9. Ramadan 10. Shawwal 11. Dhul Qa‘dah 12. Dhul Hijjah
Pre-reading listening assignment (yeap you read that correctly) : When you love someone ( by Jason Mraz) This wonderful song started playing in my head since last week I'd say.. And while I'm not in love, I'm not not in love either.. I found this seemingly-wonderful human being and my hopes of taking it further got shattered mid-crush.. All for the best, inshallah =) Now, that wonderful song, with it's simple & captivating words quickly got to me.. It says : When you love someone, your heartbeat beats so loud.. When you love someone, your feet can't feel the ground.. Oohh shining stars all seem to congregate around your face, AND when you love someone, it comes back to you I wanna talk about that last part of the chorus - "when you love someone, it comes back to you." Jason Mraz hit the nail on the head on that one, if you've missed all the other aforementioned signs of loving someone. I've liked a certain guy, let's call him Guy X (my whole world knows about him)..
so, I've liked me for nearly 6 years now.. He is a lot of all i ever wanted in a guy, in fact he taught me what i wanted in a guy.. He's smart, he's funny, he's in touch with his linguistic side, even the programming languages section of that, religious enough .. He's passionate, he's well-versed in areas I care about..and as a bonus, he's not bad looking :P So he would've been a great package had he just loved me back.. Now here's the thing, I didn't realize this becuz i had always said I just wanted to be his friend and secretly wanted a little more, but now I do see it: He loves me.. the guy loves me.. He's married, he loves his wife, but he loves me.. we're what I call good friends.. we can reconnect after a year of not meeting, with ease.. and he's free to talk about anything with me.. and he does.. the things he says surprise me.. Similarly, 12 years ago (whoa!!) i loved this guy.. He's smart, funny and again, well-versed in areas I care about. He knew I liked him, I didn't have to say it, and wow he always extra cared for me and trusted me because he knew no matter what anyone says about me, I'd never hurt him and I loved him. In fact, to this day I'd say I have a soft spot for the guy, even though he looks like an old villain now haha.. In addition, all people who I've had crushes on or even just extra admired love me, alhamdulillah. They've always been there when I needed them.. They serve me even though all I might have given is secret (ahem..) love and shy smiles. Abddurraheem Green, I think, says when you love someone talk about them. Everyone took it as love for God and His Messenger, but why not, talk about the people you love.. Love Sheikh fulan and fulan.. open up your heart and let it in...don't be afraid of the pain..when you surrender everything to God you will not feel pained when people disappoint you.. you will be calm, and that kind of love will make you stronger.. Don't be a love addict, but do love- don't rely on love to try and fill the void in you, some void is for love but there's one particular void that no creation can fill.. Often times feeling love for people suffices. If you love someone, it will show, even if you don't do anything, or try to hide it.. If you love someone, they may not obsess over you or want you the way you want them, but they'll definitely appreciate it and love you back the best way they can.. It's natural.. So, if you feel unloved, then love.. Love the Creator and he will love you, He already loves you in fact but there's always room for more..more love, more giving, more mercy, more blessings.. Love the Creator, and his creations will also love you.. As Yasmin Mogahed has put it, 'Love the giver, and you will be gifted.' Furthermore, Yasmin has also tried to remind us that it works both ways, i.e you can improve your relations with people by improving your relations with God and vice versa.. So if we extrapolate that to love, love His creation, for His sake, and He will love you.. Show mercy to them, He will show mercy to you. Provide them and He will provide you. Don't be afraid of exhausting what you have, for Allah suffices..He will provide you.. He will sustain you... He knows your limits and He doesn't test you more than you can withstand.. Love people, and put your trust in Allah.. Allow room/a share for people (in your heart, life, in your money, in your supplications/dua) and put your trust in Allah.. Don't worry, nothing is lost on Him.. Hullo!!
Long time no see peeps!! I do not even remember when did I make my last post here.. Well, I've been busy, culturing cancer cells, writing, editing, researching and submitting forms and meeting people everywhere. I had a very productive week, alhamdulillah! May this go on until I'm done.. May, May, I'm so anxious to meet you... It's not too late for a new year resolution, is it?
I couldn't think of anything (I do have goals, but there's nothing that I want to fit into 2015 in a pretty little way, like some people have..) So, Jan 20th comes, and I told myself, inwardly, to not worry. And then I asked myself, 'what to worry about and what not to worry about exactly? break it down for me' And so I did, and it came to look like a mantra.. -do not worry about dad's and sister's operation, they're not. -do not worry about anyone needing you; that's Allah's right. -do not worry about returning back to your country, what will be will be. -do not worry about love, u always have it - do not worry about the next goal, you might die before it. - worry about today's goal so you don't regret it if tomorrow comes The last one is just paraphrasing something I really loved from Dale Carnegie's books.. To live in day-tight compartments It has inspired me all my life since I read it sometime in 2007. Yup, for ~8 years of my life, it's been my guide. Occasionally, I forget about it and my life becomes a temporary mess. But I always find the light and return to this nature of living in day-tight compartments.. And when I do, I remember and say to myself in the voice of Brian Tracy (whom I discovered circa 2010, along with Tony Robbins, courtesy of my awesome and only non-African, Arab, guy friend). Guys, I'd like to take a detour from my point and say that I am being racist in putting it that way, because very few non-African, Arab guys are guy-friend material. Ok, now.. I say to myself, in the voice of Brian Tracy, whose name I once shortened to Bracy, 'Write it down.. write it down' Always write down your goals.. break them down if they are big.. always write them down..don't be ambiguous write them down.. That guy friend was more concerned with prioritizing these goals...If you have made a habit out of writing your goals, then go on and prioritize baby, prioritize! That's all for now, gotta continue working on today's goals.. ;D woot wooot woot!
won't you congratulate me ? I dumped another guy and trust me that 'dump' has our best interests at heart. I am free again.. I am not a slave to my emotions, and to human social crap... yoohoo~ And I am not at all affected.. I am glad!! This is how I know I've made the right decision... It is me I've loved all along... (and that one guy who doesn't care, but that's okay) I am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Let me start by stating that I do not question whether we should wish or refrain from wishing non-Muslims on their festivals. It's not that I do not care, I do, but care less than say whether I have given alms for the week or not.
What I do wish we all educated people do is that we wake up from our default setting of accepting whatever appears as true because so many people agree with it . When others start to celebrate Christmas on its real date then we can start questioning if we should be a part of it. Jesus MAY have been born on 25th Dec, we may never know, but we do theorize is his birthday celebration was shifted in order to coincide with a pagan celebration. At least some of the christmas elements are pagan. Now, it's no longer a celebration of ahlul-kitab, is it? Besides, now christmas is little more than another Black Friday. Do you know what Black Friday is and how it came about? Let's not be among those who are just another lamb/cow that follows herd mentality, whether it's coming from a religious scholar or it's related by your funny friends. Stay focused. Then all those arguments that pop up on certain dates every year need not matter or keep you busy. Children are dying by the thousands every day, some slowly and some in a matter of seconds, and what we care about is whether someone said something or didn't? If you die today, are you so sure that God will have no reason to punish you other than for saying "Merry Christmas" to a thousand people? Is that His top priority? I should like to leave that question rhetorical, but there are dumb dumbs out there..so NO.. I know for one that I will be punished for the prayers I neglected before anything.. for the injustice I've done to people in words or action. I will be punished for the time I wasted not doing good and not remembering God and not stopping evil & immoral happenings that happened right in front of me, before I get punished for wishing someone Happy birthday or Happy Diwali. And for me someone saying that this particular issue is so bad/ so right, is either denying that we have bigger Ummah issues, or he/she is saying that he/she is soooo good that this is his biggest worry. Good day to all! Season's greetings, my friends!
Long time no see and look, it's my favorite month again! ~ December oh la la la~ Today I am writing in a crappy mood, although I am being cheerful about it on the exterior. I do that a lot.. I am cheerful cheerful person.. But this time, you can actually help me.. I added a complete stranger on FB after he 'friend-requested' me That's not the worst part...yet I gave it time and he's bearable.. I can't prove that he's lying to me in any way, except until yesterday.. yesterday he divulged some information that yes i might have asked about indirectly (but he did it and joking that i'd put him under pressure on the subject). now, i didnt go immediately googling to see if it's true. the next day i did though.. i didnt find info to support what he said for half of that information, it's possible that i am not getting info becuz the subject is of no interest to wikipedia and the country the information lies in may not care a bit about this to make a wiki entry about it. the other half, is without a doubt, a lie unless he has autocorrect on or he mistyped something or he is misinformed himself for some weird reason.. it's put a damper to my otherwise excellent Thursday.. lying is a deal-breaker for me, in friendship & everything else, but i can't yet prove that he is in fact lying..i am not god, but i do give people the benefit of the doubt.. and so far, god, via gut-filling, has helped me evade all the wrong people in my life and avoid dates too :P i am actually curious, not just for the possibility of this being something more (i wasn't looking for/awaiting it- that spot in my heart is woven with barbed wire), but because I have this detective spirit in myself (I once solved a case of a mystery tablet that was placed in our dorm-maybe i'll post about it).. i fear being unjust to him.. What could he possibly do to me in a cafe? (this is not rhetorical, you're welcome to open my mind to paranoia) If things turn out weird, or still inexplicable, i could always say i didn't like him once i am back from the date right? (i don't have to say he is suspicious, he has other quirks that i can just over-exaggerate into a dealbreaker) yes, i can play safe and just refuse to meet him and to get rid of him completely but that's what i have been doing my entire life.. maybe i should spice it a little (within reasonable limits)??? Now tell me.... If you were me, would you go on a date (in a totally public place, so safety is no concern), to check out if this dude is the real deal or not? And what's('re) the deal-breaker(s) for your?
All my life, i've never considered myself a jealous person.
Crushes came and went, sometimes with girlfriends right in front of me, but didn't really get jealous.. people did better than me in studies or had more success with experiments and stuff,or maybe successful in relationships and I didn't care much.. But today it struck me that I might be a jealous person after all.. I am so jealous of the opposite gender. I envy them for so many reasons, e.g.: For needing to cover less parts of their body without stirring havoc in society .. For having a low maintenance body.. For not having to worry about menarche and menstruation and menopause and their implications on our physique, stamina, psychology, everyday life decisions, and for deciding when to get married (limited time to have kids, and we age much earlier than men..seriously, most men look awesome at 40 even if they looked unattractive at 20). We women think so much more than men. Sometimes we act on impulse, despite overthinking things! I envy men for having no negative biases being placed upon them from the moment their born (In many cultures, it's disliked if not totally unlucky to have a baby girl. A woman who has a baby girl hates her for not being a boy, a man scolds his wife and threatens to marry again if she doesnt give birth to a boy thus making her give birth again and again perhaps yearly such that there are overburdened and the woman's uterus collapses. no kidding. and then there are practices where baby girls are buried alive. it's not just a pre-islamic practice- just go to India and see for yourself. surprise surprise stupid men, it's the man's sperm that decides whether a boy or a girl is conceived. where's your Iman oh Yemeni* men and Bangladeshi** men? If nobody had baby girls, how will you even have children you idiot. Besides, these girls are the ones that guarantee you heaven, 3 girls and upholding your islamic pillars is enough to guarantee you heaven, idiots!*** I envy men for not being stopped from vigorous sports because secretly your parents are worried that you will get hurt and break your hymen or do some damage to your reproductive organs or your beauty. I envy men for not having curfew hours as common and early as ours. I envy men for not being looked at weirdly for choosing not to get married. I envy men for being able to carry the family name. I envy men for being able to live with their family, even after marriage, for eternity and no one questions them. I envy men for their desires being acknowledged. Is there anyone who questions the idea that men love and fantasize about women? I envy men for society accepting and understanding when they reject a woman based on her looks, but the same does not apply to a woman, even in a modern, educated society,. I envy men for not being sexualized and objectified, when compared to women. I envy men for their simple mindedness and acceptance of their body and role at a very young age. I envy men for not having to go through the trauma of childbirth.. I envy men for not having to worry about how much/little hair they have. I envy men for their ability to not immediately blame themselves e.g. situation: pants too tight --> these pants must have shrunk <instead of> ---->i must have gotten fatter.. I envy men for their innate nature of not being critical of their peers of the same sex. Woman to another woman about another woman: OMG! Have you seen her dress? I envy men for not being able to prove their virginity . You just either believe them or you don't. I envy men. Okay, now that I've emphasized my envy of men maybe we can talk about what can I do to change society and change my own unfortunately-already-established-bad-ideas-about-being-a-woman, because if you notice it's not penis envy and I've no interest in changing my nature and becoming a transvestite. Jabir ibn Abdullah reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Whoever has three daughters and he cares for them, he is merciful to them, and he clothes them, then he will enter Paradise.” It was said, “O Messenger of Allah, what if he has only two?” The Prophet said, “Even two.” Greetings! Did I mention that I've got my mom's rice cooker in my dorm room this semester? It's totally illegal here..but it's my last semester and i just don't care anymore... Of course I don't totally not care.. I mean I do take the pain of keeping my utensils, ingredients and rice cooker hidden... and Still can't the hang of perfect rice, but all other foods turn out okay..by okay i mean way healthier than the food they sell at the canteens here, cheaper, of satisfying portions, of unquestionable hygiene and sometimes tasty too. Here are a few pictures: DISCLAIMER: not my work, though I find it highly valuable & in agreement with me :D
(Don't use them all , unless if you want to be called "Insane"... :)) *What is your concept of marriage? *Have you been married before? *Are you married now? *What are you expectations of marriage? *What are your goals in life? (long and short term) *Identify three things that you want to accomplish in the near future. *Identify three things that you want to accomplish, long term. *Why have you chosen me/other person as a potential spouse? *What is the role of religion in your life now? *Are you a spiritual person? *What is your understanding of an Islamic marriage? *What are you expecting of your spouse, religiously? *What is your relationship between yourself and the Muslims community in your area? *Are you volunteering in any Islamic activities? *What can you offer your zawj (spouse), spiritually? *What is the role of the husband? *What is the role of the wife? *Do you want to practice polygamy? *What is your relationship with your family? *What do you expect your relationship with the family of your spouse to be? *What do you expect your spouses relationship with your family to be? *Is there anyone in your family living with you now? *Are you planning to have anyone in your family live with you in the future? *If, for any reason, my relationship with your family turns sour, what should be done? *Who are your friends? (Identify at least three.) *How did you get to know them? *Why are they your friends? *What do you like most about them? *What will your relationship with them after marriage be? *Do you have friends of the opposite sex? *What is the level of your relationship with them now? *What will be the level of your relationship with them after marriage? *What type of relationship do you want your spouse to have with your friends? *What are the things that you do in your free time? *Do you love to have guests in your home for entertainment? *What are you expecting from your spouse when your friends come to the house? *What is your opinion of speaking other languages in home that I do not understand? (with friends or family) *Do you travel? *How do you spend your vacations? *How do you think your spouse should spend vacations? *Do you read? *What do you read? *After marriage, do you think that you are one to express romantic feelings verbally? *After marriage, do you think that you want to express affection in public? *How do you express your admiration for someone that you know now? *How do you express your feelings to someone who has done a favor for you? *Do you like to write your feelings? *If you wrong someone, how do you apologize? *If someone has wronged you, how do you want (s)he to apologize to you? *How much time passes before you can forgive someone? *How do you make important and less important decisions in your life? *Do you use foul language at home? In public? With family? *Do your friends use foul language? *Does your family use foul language? *How do you express anger? *How do you expect your spouse to express anger? *What do you do when you are angry? *When do you think it is appropriate to initiate mediation in marriage? *When there is a dispute in your marriage, religious or otherwise, how *should the conflict get resolved? *Define mental, verbal, emotional and physical abuse. *What would you do if you felt that you had been abused? *Who would you call for assistance if you were being abused? *Do you suffer from any chronic disease or condition? *Are you willing to take a physical exam by a physician before marriage? *What is your understanding of proper health and nutrition? *How do you support your own health and nutrition? *What is you definition of wealth? *How do you spend money? *How do you save money? *How do you think that your use of money will change after marriage? *Do you have any debts now? If so, how are you making progress to eliminate them? *Do you use credit cards? *Do you support the idea of taking loans to buy a new home? *What are you expecting from your spouse financially? *What is your financial responsibility in the marriage? *Do you support the idea of a working wife? *If so, how do you think a dual-income family should manage funds? *Do you currently use a budget to manage your finances? *Who are the people to whom you are financially responsible? *Do you support the idea of utilizing baby sitters and/or maids? *Do you want to have children? If not, how come? *To the best of your understanding, are you able to have children? *Do you want to have children in the first two years of marriage? If not, when? *Do you believe in abortion? *Do you have children now? *What is your relationship with your children now? *What is your relationship with their other parent? *What relationship do you expect your spouse to have with your children and their parent? *What is the best method(s) of raising children? *What is the best method(s) of disciplining children? *How were you raised? *How were you disciplined? *Do you believe in spanking children? Under what circumstances? *Do you believe in public school for your children? *Do you believe in Islamic school for your children? *Do you believe in home schooling for your children? *What type of relationship should your children have with non-Muslim classmates/friends? *Would you send your children to visit their extended family if they lived in another state or country? *What type of relationship do you want your children to have with all their grandparents? *If there are members of my family that are not Muslim, that are of different race or culture, what type of relationship do you want to have with them? |
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AuthorA girl who likes herbs..likes some poetry, but write only once in a blue moon.. she's for ever fascinated by language..a night owl too..loves nature and Man too.. She likes crowds, but only when she can drown in them and be an observer.. |