This wonderful song started playing in my head since last week I'd say..
And while I'm not in love, I'm not not in love either..
I found this seemingly-wonderful human being and my hopes of taking it further got shattered mid-crush.. All for the best, inshallah =)
Now, that wonderful song, with it's simple & captivating words quickly got to me..
It says :
When you love someone, your heartbeat beats so loud..
When you love someone, your feet can't feel the ground..
Oohh shining stars all seem to congregate around your face,
when you love someone, it comes back to you
I wanna talk about that last part of the chorus - "when you love someone, it comes back to you."
Jason Mraz hit the nail on the head on that one, if you've missed all the other aforementioned signs of loving someone.
so, I've liked me for nearly 6 years now..
He is a lot of all i ever wanted in a guy, in fact he taught me what i wanted in a guy..
He's smart, he's funny, he's in touch with his linguistic side, even the programming languages section of that, religious enough .. He's passionate, he's well-versed in areas I care about..and as a bonus, he's not bad looking :P So he would've been a great package had he just loved me back..
Now here's the thing, I didn't realize this becuz i had always said I just wanted to be his friend and secretly wanted a little more, but now I do see it: He loves me.. the guy loves me..
He's married, he loves his wife, but he loves me.. we're what I call good friends.. we can reconnect after a year of not meeting, with ease.. and he's free to talk about anything with me.. and he does.. the things he says surprise me..
Similarly, 12 years ago (whoa!!) i loved this guy.. He's smart, funny and again, well-versed in areas I care about. He knew I liked him, I didn't have to say it, and wow he always extra cared for me and trusted me because he knew no matter what anyone says about me, I'd never hurt him and I loved him. In fact, to this day I'd say I have a soft spot for the guy, even though he looks like an old villain now haha..
In addition, all people who I've had crushes on or even just extra admired love me, alhamdulillah.
They've always been there when I needed them.. They serve me even though all I might have given is secret (ahem..) love and shy smiles. Abddurraheem Green, I think, says when you love someone talk about them. Everyone took it as love for God and His Messenger, but why not, talk about the people you love.. Love Sheikh fulan and fulan.. open up your heart and let it in...don't be afraid of the pain..when you surrender everything to God you will not feel pained when people disappoint you.. you will be calm, and that kind of love will make you stronger..
Don't be a love addict, but do love- don't rely on love to try and fill the void in you, some void is for love but there's one particular void that no creation can fill..
Often times feeling love for people suffices.
If you love someone, it will show, even if you don't do anything, or try to hide it..
If you love someone, they may not obsess over you or want you the way you want them, but they'll definitely appreciate it and love you back the best way they can.. It's natural..
So, if you feel unloved, then love..
Love the Creator and he will love you, He already loves you in fact but there's always room for more..more love, more giving, more mercy, more blessings..
Love the Creator, and his creations will also love you..
As Yasmin Mogahed has put it, 'Love the giver, and you will be gifted.'
Furthermore, Yasmin has also tried to remind us that it works both ways,
i.e you can improve your relations with people by improving your relations with God and vice versa..
So if we extrapolate that to love, love His creation, for His sake, and He will love you..
Show mercy to them, He will show mercy to you.
Provide them and He will provide you.
Don't be afraid of exhausting what you have, for Allah suffices..He will provide you.. He will sustain you... He knows your limits and He doesn't test you more than you can withstand..
Love people, and put your trust in Allah..
Allow room/a share for people (in your heart, life, in your money, in your supplications/dua) and put your trust in Allah.. Don't worry, nothing is lost on Him..