I dressed up carefully for you. I had so much energy for someone fasting.
Subhan Allah, everything changed now that it cannot ever have another meaning- now that it should not matter.
For once, I have a friend who actually loved your company. For once, I loved how I acted around you completely. I wasn't shy, not embarrassed, not frustrated.
I'm thankful and still full of energy, but I must not be selfish..I know I won't be annoying, I just don't want to spoil it's perfection. I want to preserve my day without wasting it. I miss you already. I wish you knew.. And I hope you know that my heart doesn't need my friends' approval.
I'll miss this day..
It's like that day you drove me, only I was to self-conscious then. Today, as I watched the bright and still rising sun, I teared up listening to Tum se hi..
I knew, always, that I loved song- I just didn't know I'd listen today with welled up tears..
Now as I recall this and almost start to wallow in self-pity, the same tears threaten to burst.
I don't care if I'm in people's company, I don't care if you know or not.. I just want those salty pearlys to flow, although I know thay can do no more than dab my eyes and trickle sideways as I lay..
A few months fron now, you'd be safely married and in her arms.. I feel my hand trembling now, my forearms cold and goosebumps arising..
Basically and simply and truly, I'll miss these days and maybe we'll meet next exhibit.